DARK
Being the last of three three kids is not always as rosy as one would think. Yes you get a lot of care and pampering from everyone, you also get a lot of hand me downs too, while your parents are giving you the "Baby of the house treatment" your older siblings are giving you the "last born treatment", trust me they’re never the same thing.
At school your siblings try to protect you from bullies, but it dosen’t help much if they’re also part of the popular kids, while you’re the nerd. You become practically invisble, people just come to you to get to your other siblings. You never really know which of your friends are your friends, or if y’all just friends by proxy, except your fellow nerds, you can be sure their love is true, after all y’all are in the same boat. The options are limited in this circle, it’s either you bond with your like, or you stay lonely, but if you’re both nerdy and obnoxious, then you my friend will be riding solo full time.
A lot of the time these relationships formed amongst each other are born out of circumstance and has little to do with choice, but with time you begin to realise how much you have in common, you eventually form bonds and become best friends. The case wasn’t different for my friend Tony and myself., while we aced our tests and exams, others were having fun and partying, guess who weren’t getting invites to these parties... yeah you guessed right. No matter how much you try to remind yourself that you’re the one doing the stuffs that matters, a part of you still wants to get invited to the parties, even if you don’t attend, it’s nice to be seen. It’s even worse when you can see the party lights and hear the music from your bedroom window.
It’s not everyday you get kissed by a beautiful girl, hell for some, the thought that a beautiful girl would even want to kiss them is already gratifying enough. This were the thoughts that preceeded Tony’s mood all through summer. The pretty lass he’s had a crush on all through high school finally noticed him, he was so over joyed, you’d think he just won the world cup, but such is the happenings in our world. Well for me, I found solace in something else, something I consider to be beautiful, although a lot of people would argue that it’s weird.
I find myself enjoying watching the night skies, the stars and the moon. I just find them to be soothing, calming, they help me think. Over time, staring into the dark had become more of a hobby. Sometimes I reach places I never knew existed, something about the dark appeals to me, like it speaks to me. Sometimes I don’t understand it, but I know it does me. "The night is dark and full of terrors", but aren’t we all dark?. While many don’t know this, and those that do may try to to deny it, there is something about the dark that appeals to us and a lot of us can relate to it.
I find myself falling in love with
the dark, Tony thinks it’s weird, but I believe weird is art, a lot of the things that are right now, were at some point considered as weird, all it took was some artistic and creative brilliance and boom, it’s a masterpiece accepted by all.
Being the last born has a lot of perks, I can’t deny it, a lot of people assume you don’t know anything 'cause you’re the youngest, so it makes it easy to mask a lot of things, you get to see the world from a different angle. I love every bit of being a last born. Shout out to all the last borns around the world, stay blessed.
